Saturday, December 13, 2008

One rainy day..

Manaat jhaalele nirasheche ghar
Ani jhadjhadun aleli pavsaachi sar

Jalheen jharyala
kshanat vahta kela,
evdhach kay, sarini
melelya manalahi jagta kela

man jaaga jhaala
swatahlach vicharla
arechya aaj apan
ithe kuthe yena kela?

paNich paNi paN poor nahi,
sosatyacha vaara paN vaadal nahi,
jaNu kahi haa swapnatla gaav
nirjan betavarun disleli aashechi naav.

ashi jhadjhadun aleli ashechi sar
kshanbharat nirasha jhaali beghar.

- Adi (25/6/05)

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

The Search...

Human being is a social animal!! So true, how much ever I keep shouting in my earlier posts that everyone is alone in their own life and that there are no 100% buddies....... I also think that our search for one will never end. This search is one of the few purposes of life. This search gives lot of hope and also disappointment. But no doubt this is most interesting thing in life.
(Disclaimer: I am keeping family out for the sake of this post.)
During my search, I have met so many people... soooo many of them. Some, I never felt like even thinking - tresspassers. Some, I thought over for a very little time - acquaintances. Some I till occasionally think about - friends. Some, I think about a lot - good friends. Some I really think about most of the times - best buddies. Some, I don't have to think.. because I am a reflection of their values, their thoughts & their advice - 3 bestest buddies.
It is fun categorizing people into these groups/tiers and it is even more fun observing how people keep switching between groups. It has happened so many times, people had almost reached the second last tier or even last tier... but fallen deep down to second tier. Second tier is very broad, it has anyone who I know and had a reason to remember.
Audacity haan!!!! But well that is fact. I think it is very importantt for every person to know how many people are there in their last tiers. And it is also very important to be in last tiers of atleast a few people. There is quite a possibility that the two things are independent of each other... i.e. you might not be in the last tier of people who are in your last tier.
With me, I have 3 buddies in the last tier. I don't need to mention their names, they would know its them when they read this post. I have already mentioned, I am not including family in this post. So apart from my family, these 3 people have made most difference in my life. They have been through thick and thin with me and most importantly have not changed their behaviour with me whether it was a thick or a thin or none of those :P. These are the people who will not neglect, just because they think I am moody. These are the people who will know, why I react the way I do. I know I can take them for granted... and I am neither sorry nor thankful. They are the people I would call up at midnight or even after that and talk about a problem as small as 'bedbugs in the house'. They are the people from whom, I cannot keep any secret, as trivial as, ' I have a crush on the dude who was sitting next to me in plane.' These are the people, who I do not meet for months but feel no need to catch up when I do the next time. These are the people, who know half of what I am going to talk about in a phone call just after listening to the tone of my 'Hello'!!! And this list can go on and on for ever. Bottomline, I am very very thankful to God, that I have them for me.
Inspite of all this, I stick to my opinion that they are not everything in my life. They are a big part of my life.. they know around 5 - 10% about me. But not all. I am still 'alone' but have met few other 'loners' on my way to share my experiences of the journey and get reliable maps for future.